Sunday, June 26, 2011

Bye Bye old blog . =)

Good Bye old Blog !!
Hello New blog !! =)

Hey people , due to the " too many email add " xD I am no longer going to use this blog anymore =) BUT BUT BUT !! I 'm having a new one !! It's going to be the same , just the older older post no more hahas xD I guess it's time for me to let go the past and start a brand new one . xD So yeah !! Check it out =) . Enjoy =)

XOXO Crazy Jo.

Monday, June 20, 2011

I hate JUNE !!

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY ???!!!!!!!!
I'm going CRAZYYYYY !!!
I cant take this anymore !!!
Stop asking me to make decision !!
just .. ENOUGH !!!

I'm seriously going crazy !! I just fell that i don't have time for myself anymore. Even though i have it's more on sleeping . Even music cant calm me down now. What can i do ?? I cant do this by myself . This is just too much for me . Too much challenges in a month . I seriously fell like Jumping down from a building or just run across the road without looking . But i know God has a reason for this . I really really want to go some where relaxing !! I don't want to make decision anymore !! Why are you all always asking me to make decision between things that are soo personal . I had enough of getting scolded for everything . What i choose also get scolded . WHAT DO YOU ALL WANT FROM ME !! Do i look like someone that is easy to bully ?? You think i like it that you all keep scolding me ?? I HAD ENOUGH !! ENOUGHT !!!!

XOXO Crazy Jo.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

I need you now ...

Where are you went i most needed you ??

I just cant stand it anymore. This is too much. I cant believe this is how stress feel . I never feel like this before . NEVER !! Everything happening at the same time ?? Why ?? 7 weeks , studies , relationships , Family , ..... SERIOUSLY !!! Why must everything happen at the same time .. haix . The biggest thing that make me think alot is YOU !!!
Where have you been ?? You made me fall so deeply for you and now you're treating me like S**T ?? Are you freaking kidding me ??? For a second i actually didn;t believe what " my friends " say about you and now ... wow !! True colour shows and the worst thing is i actually fell for all your freaking tricks . Thanks to you !! I now have to bare with this freaking scar in my heart AGAIN !! So much of me supporting you and this is what i get .. Just AWESOME !! Why don't you just stab me with a knife instead ?? That wouldn't hurt as much as what you did to me ...

*breath in breath out*

Sorry about that . Just too frustrated . Alot going in my mind . Just so ... why must you do this to me ?? I fell so deeply for you . Now at this point of my frustration your not here to support me ?? I seriously had this feeling of jumping down a building . But thank God i didn't . Haix ... I really need you now . Someone to just comfort me and encourage me . And you just disappear like that ?? What happen ?? We cant work things out ?? You see .. we made it through a week . But look what happen this week . We seldom talk at all .. How do you expect us to wait for each other for 4 months ?? Seriously , my feelings for you never change a bit . It's still the same. But i can see that your feelings towards me is totally gone . And for that second , i thought that you could wait . I guess you cant . I really like you . I hope you can like me too ... So, ya ... For once , i really need you to support me and encourage me . Be there for me . Cause now ... i really need someone to talk to .... I head is just gonna blow . For once we never talk , my heart will sink and my mood the whole day goes down . You seriously got me falling for you too deep ... Now i have trouble forgetting you . I hope you understand .

XOXO Crazy Jo.

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Prayer for a friend

Lord I lift my friend to You.

I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.
Complicated circumstances have clouded his view.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.
I fear that I won't have the words that he needs to hear.
I pray for Your wisdom , oh God. And a heart that's sincere.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.
Lord I lift my friend to You.
My best friend in the world, I know he means much more to You.
I want so much to help him, but this is something he has to do.
Lord I lift my friend up to You.
There's a way that seems so right to him.
But You know where that leads.
He's becoming a puppet of the world.
Too blind to see the strings.
And Lord I lift my friend up to You.
Lord I lift my friend to You.
I've done all that I know to do.
I lift my friend, to You.

God, I hope you answer my prayer and help my friend . =)

XOXO Crazy Jo.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Just want you to be happy =)


I really don't know what to do .. We came up with a solution but it just doesn't feel right and i'm guessing it doesn't feel right for you too right ?? I honestly don't know what should we do . It's like ... the only solution we have is better off alone. Being like this will only hurt us more and make us fall apart . We should end what we haven start . I know we said that we should take things one step at a time but i guess we have already move a very big step forward. Till we don't know what we want now . We're making each other frustrated for something we haven start . Worried that things would not work out . We're just thinking a head of time. Assuming things will turn out bad because of what we been through had hurt us alot . I guess it's normal for us to feel like this. Afraid that we could not commit. I guess ... we're just too far away to trust each other . If hurting either of us is the solution to solve this. It's worth being hurt. Cause at least we got a good reason for this . Ending this with a proper way. I rather be hurt now rather than when you fall deeper and hurt more till it could not be replace. So ya .. atleast we end this with a memory to follow on rather than a bad wan that makes us hate each other . =) I guess God has other plan for each but not together . That's way we end up here. =)

XOXO Crazy Jo.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Re:Union 2011

Hey people,
as i promise to write about Re:Union.
Here's my story . =)

Re:Union lasted for 3 days including Sunday will be 4 days.
No words can every describe Re:Union accept AWESOME !!
I'm also glad that i have a chance to help serve in in the Registration counter .
It was awesome and it's a good experience too . =)

Day 1 ( Thursday night ) ,
Re:Union P.A.R.T.Y.
I kinda hesitated this day .
I felt weird to be around people i don't really know but
everything was cool .
My Donkey ( Amanda Ooi ) introduce me to some of her friends.
They are awesome friends btw . =P
We also took some polaroid picture .
and their AWESOME !!! =)

Day 2 ( Friday morning and night ) ,
Re:Union Academy and P.A.R.T.Y.
Feld kinda scared today,
Cause it was kinda my first time serving in church .
Seeing people i don't know walking in church .mhmm ..
Kinda scary at first . xD
Than after that i kinda got the hang of it .
Meeting new people is AWESOME !! xD
hahas ... xD
Second sday was also very tiring .=(
Cause my and my donkey ( amanda ) slept like super late . xD
Than the next day we got to wake up early to serve . xD
During the message our both eyes was like about to shut . xD
But thanks to NERDS ( type of sweets ) .
We both manage to keep awake through out the service . xD

Day 3 ( Saturday morning and night ),
Re:Union Academy and P.A.R.T.Y
Wow .. day 3 is a seriously hard to focus . xD
First, we slept late again , this time LATER . xD
hahas .. xD
We slept around 5am and wake up at 7am . hahas xD
3 hours of sleep .
Our eyes was eventually shutting during session . xD
And this time, even NERDS cant help xD
We eventually got to talk to each other to keep ourself awake .x D
We were like hoping session would end fast so that we could go wash our face . xD
But thank God we also manage to listen to the message . xD
After the session ,everyone was there cam whoring .
Thanks to Amanda Ooi ,
I met the Kuantan Group .
And guess what ?? I found my J GANG !!! xD
It's unbelieveable that went they introduce themselve,
their names all start with J . hahas xD
hahas .. It was cool . Love every single one of them . <3
And i also met this 3 guys which they was from MIRI, Sarawak .
Their names were Jonathan, Liam and Joel .
Their very humble people . =)
Love them too .
Actually Love everyone of my friends.
Never hated a single one . =)

Amyways , that was actually a summary of Re:Union 2011 .
Lazy to write everything xD
But anyways, here are some pictures of Re:Union . =)

Check it out y'all . xD

The Registration Team . <3

Awesome Registration teamates. =)

The Kuantan Group .<3

The Awesome " J Gang " <3

Awesome polaroid pictures <3

Awesome . xD

hahas .. Ben Ji focusing on the food . xD

Love my Donkey soso much . <3
( me and Amanda Ooi )

Love my donkey too .=)
(me and Shermaine )

Lovie <3
( Kristine , me and Amanda )

Paparazzi Shot . xD

Cute.. xD
( me , amanda , and Charlotte )

ops . same =P

The Singaporean . xD
(me and Daniel )

That's about it about Re:Union 2011 . =)
Should have took more photos but didn;t aspect to meet so much new friends . xD
Really miss Re:Union very very much .
How nice if time could go back . =)
Hope y'all enjoy . =)
Love you people .
God bless .=)

XOXO Crazy Jo

Sunday, June 12, 2011

I'm back ... =)

Hey ... I'm back with the new improve me .. =)

Wow ... Let me recall back .
It's was like last year that i stop updating . hahas xD
But anyways, I'M BACK !!! =)
As you know , i play the guitar now . xD
Wow .. Seriously feeling rusty bout writing , but i'm gonna do it any how . =)

I'm gonna update about The Awesome Re:Union . xD
I'm gonna talk about HIM . (the new HIM ) =)

So, if you all wanna know more , check it out yeah .. *wink*

XOXO CrazyJo.